Not Here.

Do you hear that?
It’s a heart beat.
Created the day in which,
Your Abba,
thought you into being.
He breathed life within you,
chose the color of your eyes,
dreamt with you of all you’d do,
and life as it would be,
a surprise.
He was already seated with you,
on the throne,
and in the valley.
He knew each tear,
and knew your life’s balance.
He anticipated the silence,
and when you’d need a hug.
He knew he’d never say:
“No, right now,
you’re too much.”
He’s been patient.
Roaring like a lion.
Walking in the sun,
dancing in the rain,
and with you, giving a smile.
He would never say He’d leave,
for He never has.
Because He’ll always stop with you,
and listen,
and forever hold your hand.

Remember now, there’s always you and Him. Remember, from where you’ve come.

As we sit here and overlook this all, You smile with me, and dream with me, and gaze upon each thing; big and small. We fall in love and are best friends, and all fear is gone, and all hurt finds itself in mend. You know the grains of sand, and the hairs on my head, and you whisper to me secrets of life, and conquering of death. You aren’t like the rest, and you don’t give as the world gives. You remind me that love covers a multitude, and there will actually, really, one day, be nothing but bliss. So for now, You breathe with me, in and out and in and out, and tell me that You know. Know that I wasn’t created for this world, but that while here, standing on You, You’ll let glory shine, and never, ever, will You let go.

…because love wins.

Psalm 86.

Hear, O Lord, and answer me,
for I am poor and needy.
Guard my life, for I am devoted to you.
You are my God; save your servant
who trusts in you.
Have mercy on me, O Lord,
for I call to you all day long.
Bring joy to your servent,
for to you, O Lord,
I lift up my soul.
You are forgiving and good, O Lord,
abouding in love to all who call to
Hear my prayer, O Lord;
listen to my cry for mercy.
In the day of my trouble I will call to
for you will answer me.

Among the gods there is none like
you, O Lord;
no deeds can compare with yours.
All the nations you have made
will come and worship before you,
O Lord;
they will bring glory to your name.
For you are great and do marvelous
you alone are God.

Teach me your way, O Lord,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name.
I will praise you, O Lord my God, with
all my heart;
I will glorify your name forever.
For great is your love toward me;
you have delivered me from the
depths of grave.

The arrogant are attacking me, O God;
a band of ruthless men seeks my
men without regard for you.
But you, O Lord, are compassionate
and gracious God,
slow to anger, abounding in love
and faithfulness.
Turn to me and have mercy on me;
grant your strength to your servant
and save the son of your
Give me a sign of your goodness,
that my enemies may see it and be
put to shame,
for you, O Lord, have helped me and
comforted me.

…because love wins.


I heard a new song on the radio tonight. It’s called Lead. Have a listen.

God speaks. I assure you.

Seems nobody knows you, and nobody cares because everyone seems to be so focused on themselves. But we are Your children; Your daughters and sons. The body that You have made to tell of Your great love. So lead oh Lord just lead, ’cause we can’t walk this path alone. And be, oh Lord, yes be, the savior to a dying world. The world is a battle, of the good and the bad. So many have fallen down and never bounced right back. But You are the shelter, from the heat of the storm. We need Your strength and love more than ever before. His love is abundant, but time’s running low, so forget about yourselves and learn to follow.

…because love wins.

These are a few.

Bonfire smell in the air.
The rest after a long bike ride.
Pondering the sunset.
Fresh baked zucchini bread.
Walking up the driveway of a friend.
White sneakers.
Hugging for a minute straight.
Going. Just going. Together.
Smiling about where we’ve been.
Dreaming about where we’ll go.
Seeing your car on the street.
The smell of Francis 3.
Leaving the hospital parking ramp.
Laying under the maple in the backyard.
Hearing your ringtone.
Knowing without a word.
When you want to hold my hand.
Seeing a message come through from you.
Driving hours for just a few.
Toes by a waterfall.
Marshmallow guns.
When you want to tell me everything.
Snowball fights.
The way you stop when you need to.
Good mornings.
Good nights.
Bald heads.
Favorite songs on the radio.
When we both miss each other.
Brown chairs and green couches.
Vacuumed carpet.
Wave pools.
Sunglasses and jean shorts.
Your real smile when it’s just us two.

(of my favorite things.)

…because love wins.

With you.

“Never leave,” your eyes told me as you sat next to me on this dock listening to the waves move over our toes. We said very little, but the wind covered all the things we would have needed to. The sun warmed our skin all the way to our hearts, and you reached over and just laid your head on my shoulder. We just gazed upon the same Love of our lives. Here, together, we rested. We found ourselves in the shelter of the wings of the One greater than we. I laid down, and the sky became my canvas for imagination. I looked at you and said, “Yeah. Never.”

You’re on my heart and mind even today as I sit here. Breathe with me.

I wonder what it’s like where you are. Do you think about me as often as I, you? Are you moved? Are you breaking? Are you alive and dreaming, or are you wanting something else? Do you listen to the silence, or do you speak too much? Are you giving yourself away, or are you holding onto all that you’ve ever known? Are you climbing mountains and letting words be as sweet as honeycomb? Are you learning the value of every moment? What’s your smile look like?

Can we sit down together and talk for a while?

I’d like to think that we’re always together. That when we reach a hand out to the One that we love most, we hold each other’s hands as well. There are no miles that conquer love, for love is not of this world, just as we were not created for this world.

We’ve got forever together.

Don’t worry.

…because love wins.

77 Ways to Stay Unhappy Forever.

  1. Dwell on things that happened in the past.
  2. Obsess yourself with all the things that might happen in the future.
  3. Complain about problems instead of taking the necessary steps to resolve them.
  4. Fear change and resist it.
  5. Work hard, do your best and then condemn yourself for not achieving perfection.
  6. Belittle yourself.
  7. Hang out with other people who belittle you.
  8. Try to control everything and then worry about the things you can’t control.
  9. Lie to yourself and those around you.
  10. Keep doing the same thing over and over again.
  11. Be lazy and follow the path of least resistance.
  12. Hold onto anger.  Never forgive anyone.
  13. Always be right.  Never let anyone else be more right than you.
  14. Compare yourself unfavorably to those who you feel are more successful.
  15. Let small issues snowball into big problems.
  16. Never learn anything new.
  17. Never take responsibility for your own actions.
  18. Blame everyone around you.
  19. Don’t ask for directions and don’t ask questions.
  20. Don’t let anyone help you.
  21. Quit when the going gets tough.
  22. Be suspicious.  Trust no one.
  23. Get four hours of sleep every night and convince yourself that it’s enough.
  24. Never throw anything way.  Even if you don’t use it, hold onto it.
  25. Say “yes” to everyone.  Fill all your time with commitments.
  26. Try to be everyone’s friend.
  27. Multitask, multitask, multitask!  Do everything at once.
  28. Never spend any time alone.
  29. Don’t help others unless you have to.  Do only the things that benefit you directly.
  30. Hang out with people who complain about everything.
  31. Focus on what you don’t want to happen.
  32. Fear the things you don’t fully understand.
  33. Always seek external validation before you consider yourself good enough.
  34. Take everything and everyone in life seriously.
  35. Spend your life working in a career field you aren’t passionate about.
  36. Focus on the problems.
  37. Think about all the things you don’t have.
  38. Read or watch lots of depressing news from broadcast media.
  39. Set lofty goals for yourself and never do anything to achieve them.
  40. Never exercise.
  41. Only eat junk food and fried food.
  42. Never check-up on your health.
  43. Setup your lifestyle so it revolves around money.
  44. Spend more than you earn and rack up lots of financial debt.
  45. Don’t say what you mean.  Don’t mean what you say.
  46. Frown.
  47. Never tell anyone how you feel or what you’re thinking.
  48. Make sure everything you do impresses someone else.
  49. Always put your own needs on the back burner.
  50. Get involved in other people problems and make them your own.
  51. Make others feel bad about themselves.
  52. Watch TV for several hours every day.
  53. Gamble often.
  54. Stay in the same place.  Don’t travel.
  55. Don’t play, just work.
  56. Let your hobbies go.
  57. Let your close relationships go.
  58. Never finish what you start.
  59. Take everything personally.
  60. Do lots of drugs.  Drink lots of alcohol.
  61. Never say, “I’m sorry.”  Never say, “I love you.”
  62. Don’t work hard at anything.
  63. Always wait until the last minute.
  64. Believe that, no matter what, you are entitled to things.
  65. Let others make decisions for you.
  66. Remember the insults.  Forget the compliments.
  67. Let it all bottle up inside.
  68. Rely on others for everything.
  69. Fail to plan.
  70. Don’t dream.
  71. Don’t think about the future at all.
  72. Always disregard other people’s opinions and suggestions.
  73. Make promises you can’t keep.
  74. Don’t decide on anything, ever.
  75. Just keep going and going and going.  And never ever stop.
  76. Speak first, and a lot. Never listen first.
  77. Never pray.

What will you do today? Don’t think about it. Do it. Live now.

…because love wins.