Every time someone with no hair walks by me, I remember that I was once the one that walked by with no hair. And, all of a sudden, I see with my new eyes. I see everything, in the light. I see it all, and I breathe, just as I should, soaking fully in each day, and admiring deeply each night.

These moments, I thank God for cancer.

…because love wins.

Your little eyes are so vibrant in my memory. The feel of your little fingers poking at mine make me smile as I remember. There’s no complication to this; only love.

I adore our good mornings and good nights and naps and days in the light. There’s no complication to this; only love.

You call me and make my day, when you don’t even know you do. You’ve been there for everything, and will be as long as you can. There’s no complication to this; only love.

You pray for me. Tell me when I’m crazy. Remind me that I’m not always crazy. There’s no complication to this; only love.

You study next to me in these library nights, as we grow in many ways. You work so you can love children with cancer with me. There’s no complication to this; only love.

You send me messages about dying cancer patients. Simply, there’s no complication to this; only love.

You entered my life and we’ve only begun. There’s no complication to this; only love.

It’s never been complicated. It’s never going to be. Because to love there’s no complication; only love.

I’m glad you’re here. I’m glad you call. I miss you enough to make me hurt. I see more than you know. I’m thankful you’ve been. I want you to come back.

And Jesus, you’ve made that all simple.

Only love.

…because love wins.

You see what others cannot, and that I believe. We walk the same path, therefore, I can know who you are, because I know how Jesus can be. There’s a whole lot that we cannot explain, and there’s even more that we wouldn’t want to. You ache, as I watch you resonate with yourself as they break down your being. You tell me of forgiveness, and what you cannot say your eyes tell me. It’s like I relive what you’ve lived, and leave with nothing but greater admiration. And with all the things you see, there is something you do not. There’s that part that you’re blind to. The part that I know. It’s what I see when I look at you. It’s why I don’t turn away. It’s the hope you don’t have in yourself, that Jesus has for you. It’s what I see, that gives me hope, that you will forever be free.

I can hardly believe this. But faith tells me so.

“I’ve come to see that one of the greatest gifts in all of life is that of being known.”

…because love wins.

You’ve got things that no one else has.
You’ll know what they cannot grasp.
You’ll walk with me hand in hand,
and you’ll breathe heavy when together we plan.
We’ll break and build,
and you won’t be perfect.
Though, perfectly placed.
This heart gets impatient,
while I watch the rain fall.
You’re beautiful beyond measure,
and you’re on this earth, what I want.
So where are you?
When will together happen?
We have all of life to do.
But more than anything,
you have here forever to be.

I dream late at night, and I remember that it’s not mine to choose. “Lead me, Abba, I’ll wait as You remind me again, that You’re all I’ll ever need.”

…because love wins.

Who are we as we’re born, and what right do the scars to have to stay there in the days since we took our first breath? You’re not that wound, or another. And, you’re not without hope. You’re beautiful. You’re pure. You smile with your inner being. Because deeply, you are His. You know Home. And in Home you will begin.

I’m here.

…because love wins.

Why in the world is there a whole world of people that want to be with me, but when I’m with them I think about the fact that I want to be around you? There’s something in those eyes you see with that see more than you know, and there’s life in there that should be unleashed on the world. And most of all, scared little one, it’s ok to grow. Ah, I can’t explain to you how much I love you. And I can’t explain to you how I have no idea why I love you so. But you can promise I hope I can see you forever.

Jesus wants something. All of you, for more.

Let those eyes look deeply. Let yourself be.

…because love wins.

The white walls and layers of paper and binding make me remember days that elated me. These days do too. But even as I look across the table, I remember how much I wish you were every day. And in the middle of all the everything, I stop and remember how every day is change. Every day, is more finding the forever in the cross. For you. For me. For eternity. It’s all we hold onto. It lets you be close. No matter what, I still love you.

…because love wins.

Honestly, I laugh at what this life is. Every day, I walk around and laugh. “How is possible to be so happy?” you ask me. Hahaha. I have no idea. His name is Jesus. There’s a WHOLE lot about Him that I don’t understand. Marketing. I am delighted to read that book. I want to hug you all. I want to live it all. I walk through the pouring rain and you tell me about the Holy Spirit. It freaks you out a little bit. Yeah, that’s ok. You long board all over the place, and it’s incredible to watch you be. I snuggle with a dinosaur and a giraffe and pass thoughts about people that are held in my heart. You help me with emails, and you answer my crazy phone calls. And I climb those stairs and look into your eyes.

And then, I sit, and I listen to the rain and to the cars go by.

Life cannot be more beautiful.

…because love wins.